My little heart is breaking…
I can’t take this.
I’ll admit I’ve had a pretty protected life until these last few years, but I’ve never experienced anything like this before.

Especially not with my parents, who were always so close...

These past few weeks they’ve been neck and neck, always yelling, always fighting.
I write this at 10:40 pm (GMT) and my mother has just walked out. They went to bed and at first I didn’t hear anything until my mother walked out and head downstairs. My father pursued, asking where she was going. She replied with “Where do you think I’m going?!” She sounded angry. It was then I started to worry.
My whole life they had always been close but now…I don’t know.
They started yelling loudly (my sister and I are supposed to be asleep by now… ) they just kept yelling and then I heard my father yelling that she was “a fucking lying two-faced asshole” and then they yelled more. After a while my father yelled “Fine..! Hurry up and go!” my mother replied with “fine.” And they returned upstairs.
I could hear her getting things from her wardrobe and drawers…she opened the bedroom door and he started on her again. My mother slammed the door and walked out. I heard the back door slam…and that was it.

I’ve never experienced anything like this before…My heart aches and I feel like my tears might actually escape for once…It hurts to breathe and I’m more upset than I can ever remember being before…
The other week I had a friend at school talking of her parents divorce, and how now her and her mother don’t even talk or text, and some of the things she said that led to it, was exactly what’s been happening to me…I’m worried…
I’m lucky I have a couple of friends who understand and try to keep me happy but the fear won’t go away as it just keeps getting worse…I don’t know what to do, I fear that if I do anything it’ll make it worse…So I’ve stayed in my room most the time, on my bed, phone in hand…

Their last big fight, my mother slept on the couch…
I hope it stops soon. x